Double Release Show!

Happy belated Mother's Day to you all.  I spent the day working at my restaurant and then having dinner with my mom.  My husband got me a badass garden rake, and my kids made me cards.  I picked wild violets to make violet syrup.  It was a nice day. 

Then today, I got an extra surprise when my new record arrived in the mail.  I plan to play a release show for it--and the album I released but couldn't perform in 2020--on June 5th at 6 pm at the Belvidere Bandshell. 

I'm nervous. 

Writing music keeps coming naturally to me.  But putting it out there has become increasingly awkward. Which feels backwards.  Shouldn't I feel more confident the older I get? 

The thing is: my relationship with music is more personal than ever.  The piano knows some pretty dark stuff about me at this point.  I tell it everything. It's like a guidance counselor (the fun counselor that tells you to scream and pound things).  And the better I get at talking to it, the more vulnerable I realize I am. 

And being vulnerable in front of a crowd doesn't sound as fun as it used to when my only worries were break-ups. 

But then I remember the power of vulnerability.  Reader, with it being Mother's Day, I've been thinking about the kind of mom I want to be.  And it's fair to say that I want my kids to have a role model that's good at being human.  Not the kind of person that hides her humanity while putting on a good face. 

And so for myself--and my kids--I'll be playing the deep, dark secrets of my heart for the world again this summer.  Stop out and see me if you're in Northern Illinois! 

Have a great week, and I'll see you next Monday. -Em

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