Without me asking them, Prairie Street Brewing Company brewed a beer for my restaurant. Which is hands down the coolest thing that has happened to me in a long time. It's a juniper beer called Einer Øl, and we're releasing it to the world this Thursday. I've wanted to ride the high all weekend.
But I tend to get nervous when something good happens to me. Allowing good fortune to elevate my emotions feels dangerous. I've always thought that--if something outside of my control can make me so happy--then it can also bring me crashing down. I'd much rather run my own show, allowing myself to feel happy or sad based on my own actions and merit.
Yes. I am my own buzz kill.
As I reflect tonight, I can't help but think about what a sad existence I'm living. Am I really limiting my joy to only what I can control? Jesus. Life is far too short not to let ourselves feel good, no matter the reason. Reader, these are some hard times in our world. If you've got cause to feel great this week, feel it damnit. Get high on your good luck and let it stir up every piece of love in your heart. I'm going to allow myself to feel every ounce of glee inside this bottle tonight. See you next Monday. -Em