I wrote a blog last week, but for some reason, it didn't post. I guess it was gobbled up by the internet. Alas, those deep thoughts have been lost for good.
Such is life.
Anyhoo, the big news of the week is that a man named Pablo Korona released a documentary about me this week. The video went live a few days ago, and it already has more than 16,000 views on Facebook. And while most people would be beaming with pride, I've acted like a human ostrich, sticking my head in the proverbial sand and staying out of sight, avoiding incoming compliments like a grown-up playing dodgeball.
The older I get, the harder it is for me to be in the limelight. In the past few months, I've turned down countless gigs, class opportunities, and interviews with the media. I still write music. I still like people. But for some reason, I haven't wanted to stand out. All week, I've been trying to assess why this is the case. It finally hit me on Friday:
I'm just not as confident as I used to be.
I don't know how I lost my confidence. Maybe it happened slowly overtime. Whatever the reason, I want it back.
Reader, life goes too quickly to feel insecure. If you happen to be at a similar stage in your life, one where your confidence has been rocked, let's make a pact to get it back. We don't want to live with regrets about opportunities we didn't take, or times we didn't allow ourselves to feel excited about our own good fortune. We absolutely cannot spend a single moment of our precious life slinking into the shadows.
With that, I leave you with this great documentary; Pablo just added it on YouTube moments ago. It's about me! And I'm going to force myself not to hide from it! I hope you enjoy it! (Exclamation points give me confidence!) I'll see you next Monday. -Em