Will Won't

I got vertigo two weeks ago.  My doctor thinks it happened because of the recent combination of airplane travel and an ear infection.  I've been miserable, and working through the constant spinning has been hard, but I've been powering through it anyway.  Because that's what I do best. 

Power through. 

Through the years, I've counted will power as my greatest asset.  I've always figured that with a lot of determination and patience, I can accomplish anything.  And for the most part, it's been true.  It's how I've learned how strong I can be. But this week, I learned a lesson the hard way: 

Will power has to be used right. 

After two weeks of getting nowhere, I finally hit an emotional deadend.  I couldn't keep working through vertigo. Today, I redirected my energy. Rather than fight my way through the daily grind, I used will power to call every doctor in the area to find somebody who could help me find relief.  I got into a physical therapist this afternoon, and I made appointments for the rest of the week.  For the first time, I feel like I may be able to see the light at the end of this blurry tunnel. 

Reader, perseverance is an incredible trait. But it can't take you everywhere. The moral of my week is: if you're working hard but you're still just beating your head against the wall, it may be time to change course and try a path without a wall.   

I'm off to movie/junk food night with the family.  Because sometimes, you just need to resolve to have no will power at all.  See you next Monday. -Em

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